Starting to feel relieved....

I went in for my appt. a couple weeks ago, and KNEW a month was going to be too long for me to go without hearing the heartbeat. I am not feeling a lot of movement yet, although I feel a flutter here and there. But, when you have lost babies, you often worry that this one might end up in the same fate, and can not allow yourself to get excited, or even connect with the baby you are carrying. Mothers who have gone through this, know what I am talking about. So, my doctor has been fantastic through all of this. He told me last appt. that if I couldnt wait a week, if I was worried, to call and come in and hear the heartbeat. Well, yesterday I just didnt "feel well." I felt punky, not sick, just blah. Felt like I was unsure and it really started to hit me that I have no real connection with this child. I thought man, I dont think this is normal, so I better call and go in and chat with the doctor. So, I did just that. I went in, and the first thing he did was listen and find that heartbeat. A HUGE sense of relief when I heard that strong heartbeat. I immediately felt a sense of relief... but that wasn't all I was worried about. I told Dr. Leppetich what was going through my head and he told me to stop worrying. He told me we are going to have a baby in Oct, and he told me with the testing that has already come back, he see's no indications there is anything AT ALL wrong with this child. He said that the feelings of disconnect are all normal, and told me that if I want something to worry about, I need to start worrying how I am going to have a toddler running all over the place, and having to take care of a newborn infant. Ha Ha.... thanks Dr. He told me that everything was great... and this Doctor, I honestly trust!! He is amazing. Takes a seat on his little Dr. seat, backs it against the wall, crosses his legs, and says, LETS CHAT...Whats going through your head. Any concerns, any thoughts on how you would like to give birth, any questions on the process of VBAC, You know the risks, and what would cause an automatic C-Section...etc. etc. Yes. Dr. :) So, my next appt. is on April 30th. I am also going to be scheduling the U/S to find out the sex of the baby, for 4 weeks from now. WOO Hoo... Cant come quick enough.....