Change, Change, Change???

I feel like I didn’t sleep lastnight. I think the problem is, I have so much on my mind right now that I cant stop long enough to actually get "rest." Josh got kicked to the couch lastnight because Zach is going through a phase where he wants to be held at night when he goes to sleep. He wants to reach out and touch your arm to know you are there. So, what happens is when we put him in his crib he screams BLOODY MURDER until he finally passes out. The change has just recently come since I have gone back to work. Under normal circumstances when I was home, I would walk him upstairs, put him in his crib, and he would go right to sleep without a problem. Now, he has started having this seperation anxiety problem. I know he is not having a rough time at his gam and gampy's house. When I go to pick him up, he cries so hard cause he doesn’t want to leave. Must be a good sign, right?? My Dad absolutely adores him, and how I see them look at each other and interact is SOO cute! He really listens well to his gampy, and really just wants to be alittle comedian, and make grandpa laugh all the time. I am lucky, cause Polly comes down to see him pretty much everyday now. I thought it was only going to be on Mon. Wed. and Fri's, but its funny cause I'll get my mid day calls from Polly updating on how my sweet boys day is going. So, Josh got kicked to the couch lastnight cause he thinks Zach should go to sleep on his own, even if its screaming so hard he cries himself to sleep. I cant sleep if he is screaming like that. (I work now, so I need some sort of sleep) So, I take Zach and get him, calm him down, and put him in our bed just til he falls asleep, then I move him back into his crib, and he is just fine. Josh says this is a big no, no. But, he doesn’t wake up in my bed, and he doesn’t stay there for long once he is there. Josh says I am creating a Monster. What else is new??
I think I told Josh he was creating a monster when our son learned how to make the screaming noises, and Josh was told not to encourage it, and what did he do?? He encouraged it to where that’s how Zach used to act, up until recently. ( I think he is finally starting to outgrow it! Cross your fingers~~)
So, change is probably coming to my life. I feel so uncertain because I know something is coming. I can feel it. I can't elaborate, cause I do not know what it is yet. All I know is that I get this feeling, and I am usually right. Yeah yeah yeah… I am having a baby and that is change, but I think this goes bigger than that. So, do not be surprised if you see news on here in the coming days or months from our Family. I don’t mind change… I just mind it when I am 4 months pregnant. Hahaha… I do not like or feel comfortable with not having things set and ready. So, whatever is gonna happen, needs to come soon. Please.
I know God is in control of everything. He has a plan, and I am just waiting to see what he has instore, for our direction. I will keep ya posted as soon as I find out.
MJ