Just thinking..... 3 weeks TODAY....

Thursday is my next appt. which begins my weekly check ups. I can't believe this time has come so quickly. Wow, it just seems like yesterday it was I found out about this little guy. I have had to go through so much to hold onto this pumpkin, and I hope that he is so healthy when he is born. I worry so much about alot of different things. Josh say's I get it from my Momma. :) But, I cant help but worry about what is ahead. It is so unknown to me, and I just feel so emotional, and overwhelmed often. Hopefully this round, I will not have the baby blues to go along with the recovery. With Zachary I had them often, and thank God after a couple weeks I finally felt like myself again. I worry about this, and having to take care of a toddler and a newborn on my own. I sure hope I am strong enough, cause after the 1st week, I am on my own.
I dont have a lot of family which can help. With my Mom working during the day, there doesn't leave much time for her. My in-laws live on the other side of town. So, we won't see them much. They won't even be up to see Ethan until he probably comes home from the hospital. We have Polly who is always interested in helping out wherever she can with Zach, so that will be a God send. I know he will be in good hands, while I am not available or still in the hospital. I am honestly hopeful to get out of the hospital ASAP. I don't know how surgery will go, or the recovery, but I will push myself to be able to see my son who I will miss very much.
Ethan still hasn't "dropped" persay, however I am still having continuous contractions every once and awhile. Wow, some are very painful, and last what seems like a while. I am just hopeful I will be able to last for the next 3 weeks. I wonder what it will be like to deliver a baby which is basically full term. How much difference in weight there will be from when Zach was born, to Ethan. I am sure some, since Zach was only in for 37 weeks. So, I guess we will have to wait and see. I am just trying to take it as easy as possible, and trying not to over do things. I still have so much to do on my "to-do list" before I go in on the 6th. The problem is, I have to start working on everything now, because I never know when it will be "the time." I need to make sure if the time came right now, I would have everything set and ready for Zach to be looked after and cared for, the house stocked with food, clothes washed up and set aside for him, etc. etc. etc.....
Ethan's bag is packed and ready to go for the hospital. Now to mine. Which will definately take alittle longer. The video camera is charged, and the regular camera is charged and ready to go. Now all we need is a baby!! Just not too soon.... :)

Til Next Time...
~Maggie