Pure Happiness, Love & Support...

I am one lucky girl. Even though sometimes I feel like things happen to people for a reason I certainly understand my situation to be a learning expierence. Gosh, from being married 4 years, I know what I like, what i dont, what I look for, and what I would possibly want in the future.

So, hmmmm for some major changes. Blonde hair, bluish green eyes, SUPER tall, HANDSOME, VERY loving, understanding, comforting, dependable, admirable. I love the feeling of "being in love." There is nothing more special than feeling like a princess, or a QUEEN.... :) I want to be in love again, and never fall out of love. I want to be that wife that you can always count on. Always know that I will stand by your side, and support you. But, I also want a boyfriend/husband who recognizes that he has a great thing, and cherishes it, instead of walks on it, and takes it for granted. For the past 4 years of being married I know what its like to put everything in, and not get everything back. Alot of me wonders if I will ever be able to do it again. But sometimes it just takes the right person to let you know that it is possible to open up and let go again. What a leap of faith. But, with the right person I think ANYTHING is possible.

I have always had a lot of guys interested in me,.... even prior to getting married. I was just always that girl who took very good care of herself, worried about my hair getting done every 6 weeks like clock work, my toes and nails done, was very lean, and my self pride was very high. I always put my standards up here ^ and hoped that someone would come into my life and not only hit my standards, but supercede them. So, I got the guy I am currently married to, who swept me off my feet. Who took my breath away. Who I thought I was so lucky being able to know, and eventually marry. Then, I realized what a big mistake I was making. The family had so many problems, I didnt know if I was coming or going. Issues were arising, and deep down, I knew I should have A. never gotten married, or B. gotten it cancelled very soon after all the troubles started. I kept faith. I tried and tried to put things behind me, and work on the problems within my home. The only problem was, only one of us wanted to recognize and deal with the problems, as the other wanted to bury his head in the sand, and avoid confrontation. I fought by myself, often putting myself out in a very vulnerable state. I got hurt, many times, and never had the partner that I married to turn to. He never had enough respect or pride for his wife to stand up for her. Instead, I often took the blame for the situations to avoid conflict. In the long run, it has hurt me, and it has also helped me become the strong lady I am today.
I want a man who is family oriented. Someone who knows how to treat kids well, and the family is the center of their world. They would do anything to just spend that last second with you, just to tell you they love you one more time. I have never had that, and often wonder if something like this only happens in fairytales.
My love goes to someone who has the most amazing characteristics. Someone who has not had everythig served on a silver platter, who isn't used to being treated like royalty. I want to allow them to expierence how wonderful it feels to know someone loves you and can take care of you, emotionally and physically. Someone I can spoil.... and just allow the great characteristics I know I have and possess to shine and shed some warmth on your life, when you might have felt so alone. I know how I would want to be treated, and all I am looking for is someone to do the same for me. Someone who makes me feel like a million bucks when he looks at me, holds my hand proudly, or hugs me. I found someone who does just this..... and I love and cherish each moment that we do get to spend time together. I never take it for granted, and I look forward to the next time, and the weeks, months, years to come. God has to recognize that I am a good person, and I deserve to have happiness. I think thats why he put you in my life.... b/c I feel like the luckiest girl to have found you! You amaze me daily with your kindness, loving support. You are the sweetest guy I know, and any woman would be lucky to have you.... :) I feel like I won the lottery everytime you look at me with your cute smile, and I hope this feeling NEVER goes away! You are the BEST!! Thank you for waking my heart up to letting me know it is possible and someone is out there that can show me just how much I am worth again! I knew 2010 was going to be an amazing year! All because of an amazing guy who I cant wait to get to know more!

ahhhh!!! I am sooooo lucky!! Thank you God!! & Thank you to the man who knows who he is for showing me all of this!!