Life

Well, hmmm.... where to begin!! Lots and lots of changes!

The boys are getting so big! I am so thrilled with how their little personalities shine through on a daily basis. Zachary is so halarious, and has the potential to be a true comedian. He is so particular, and notices a lot of details very closely! We were sitting in a restraunt and he was pointing to the wall yellin. Ofcourse, I thought he was probably pointing to the maraca's or some sombrero on the wall, but no... he was showing me that the wall had a little crack in it, running from the ceiling down. You can say detail oriented again!
He is doin better with his words lately! Often saying words after Mom and Dad have said them. Like: Pepper, Pepsi, Animal, etc. Soon he will lose his in home therapy, but will be moving to a Pre-K program in the school district where he will get direction two times a week to start, for 2 1/2 hours. We are so thankful our son will get this heads start, and allow him to interact with other kids, etc. Dad is alittle nervous.... but, how bad can painting, snack time, and taking a nap be?
Ethan, is wanting to crawl, and most likely will be crawling anytime now! He gets on his hands and knees, and gets his knees up and under him so well. He is rocking alittle when he starts, so it should be only a matter of time. He has the cutest, biggest smile that a baby could have! He is a drooler, which also means he will most likely be starting to teeth here soon! All these firsts for my boy! I love his laugh, and his smile so much. He gets so excited to see his Momma when she gets there!! Zachary still has jealousy issues with Ethan. Although as soon as he starts moving, I am sure things might change alittle.
As for Josh and I -- We have hit a rough patch in our marriage. I am sad to announce that we are filing for divorce. We went to see a marriage counselor, which in turn told us that she didnt feel like the marriage was something that was fixable. She felt as though we should have been there a long time ago. I agreed, and said that I had tried multiple times to throw up the white flag and get his attention, but that it was just too late. At the time I cared, he didnt. He was comfortable, and to be quite honest, thought I was joking about everything. I wasnt though, and day by day, it got harder and harder to be that guys wife, who didnt want to put forth the effort to be my husband.
We are hopeful that the arrangements of me moving out, and living on my own, will make things easier to try to maintain an amicable relationship. So far.... so good. We just appreciate the privacy at this time, while our family heals, and we figure out what is best for our family and our children. So far, the children have adapted great, and I look forward to being able to stay really good friends with their Dad.