10 Weeks!!! Baby Granneman

10 Weeks!!! Baby Granneman is doing awesome! I got to see the little peanut at a checkup appt. the other day. They couldn't get its heartbeat on doplar for the 2nd week, so they decided to make sure that our little peanut was doing good by taking a quick peek! Our little peanuts heartbeat was healthy at 180 BPM!!! STRONG and MIGHTY!!
I was being seen due to my blood pressure being very high, and Mommy not feeling very well --- I have been having TERRIBLE migraine headaches, almost to the point of having no energy to be able to get up, or even drive my car. Thankfully, I have not been very ill!!! I am heading out of my 1st trimester -- and can't wait to get into the 2nd where things are inevitably MUCH better!!
Daddy has been doing a very good job of taking care of Mommy. He cooks me dinner, and makes me rest. Mommy is still on progesterone supplements for another week or 2, and he is so amazing always getting me my pill right on time. I love how hands on he already is!!
Our Peanut is alittle active booger already! When Mommy got to see "it" the other day, I laughed at how active it was. Laying there very quietly and then all of a suddent it would jump! I fell in love!!
Daddy gets to see our peanut at our June 1st U/S.
The boys are doing awesome! Zachary is a BIG 35lbs. He is so healthy and big. I love that little boy -- he makes his mommy laugh so much!! We are getting ready for his B-day coming up in July!!!
"E" is also getting so big. At his wellness visit last week, he weighed 16lbs. And he was in the 10th percentile for his weight and height. Small, but such a strong big boy at the same time! He is eating solid foods, and we are transitioning him to some real people foods as well!
Til Next time!!

Our World....

Life has been pretty hectic and crazy over here in the Jones-Granneman household. We are slowly adjusting to the changes that have happened over the past couple months, and eagerly look forward to the changes and amazing things of the future.
Each day Is a work in progress. When you live with someone who is almost exactly like you in a lot of ways, ( stubborn, forward, and overall down right amazing) it is so weird working hand in hand with someone who has their own thoughts & feelings, but wont budge because they are THAT hard headed. Sometimes I wonder -- is this what its like dealing with me when I am so darn stubborn!?? -- LOL….
Adjustment with the kids has been going well. Slowly Zachary is warming up more and more to Mom's house, and truly enjoys going there with Whitney during the day. They eat ice cream, watch TV. Play with trains, and toys, read books, etc. and TAKE NAPS!!! :) It is so awesome when Mom gets home from work and there are my boys!! I LOVE IT.
E is getting SOOOO big! He is 6 months now, and we are going to be taking him in for his checkup -- stay tuned for stats!! He gets up on his arms, and puts his legs under him and rocks, so I am thinking crawling is RIGHT AROUND THE CORNER! :( Where has this time gone!!??? He hangs out by the couch and can stand for a minute or so by himself holding on to the couch. He is so strong!!
His laugh is so contagious, and his smile is 10 times that adorable!!! I am so in love with these boys!!!
Zachary is getting more and more brave to just start trying to say words. Whenever he wants something, now he attempts to say the word. He is getting SOOO much better at talking. Some new things he has started saying are:
Bye-Bye Mom; Go Bye-Bye
Cupcake <--------SO Cute how he says this
Pot-Pie <--------even cuter how he says this word!!
More Please
Zachary is going to be going into school alittle bit early. We are going to get him caught up on speech, and then once he gets caught up to where he needs to be, we will test him back out of school until he is old enough to enter the Pre-K, or kindergarden program, depending on what his Dad and I agree on. I am so proud of him, and I just love how amazing these boys get each and everyday. They make their Mom so PROUD. :)

Changes are coming to our family -- and I can't wait to have a beautiful "step-daughter & son" if thats what you want to call it -- even though Ryan and I have no plans on ever marrying, or making this more on a legal level. We enjoy our space, freedom, and at the end of the day coming back together as a couple and having that relationship we know we come home to at the end of the day. But, it is going to be amazing to know two wonderful little kids that come from a guy who I really care about!! Cant wait to spoil you Ms. Anabel, and do lots of fun "Mommy & Me" things when you are at our house-- and Mr. Jaxon -- you are going to fit right in with my boys!! Ethan is your age, and I am sure you boys are going to be close as ever! Your Daddy is one amazing guy -- and he cant wait to make this more permanent!!

Til Next Time...

I know 100%

I am in love with you Mr. Granneman!!

You are my favorite person to stare into your eyes! Your smile is like no other, and warms my heart, each and everytime I see it! You are one of the most amazing people I have ever met!!

1. You are charming. What a personality! Got me by surprise, and swept me off my feet~~ and I couldn't have asked for it to have happened with a better person!
2. You are intelligent. So smart, and amazing at how analytical and brilliant you are! If anyone is witty in this relationship, it is YOU! :) I am so attracted to how smart you are.
3. You are such an amazing lover. The way you hug me, the way you crack my back as you attempt to give me the hymlic manuever! LOL. The way your touch feels as you lay next to me. The way our bodies connect! The way you hold my hand, and squeeze it at just the right moment, or tickle the inside of my hand with your index finger!
4. The way I can look into your eyes and see your thoughts, and how you can do the same with me. I think we connect on a much deeper level emotionally to be able to do this with one another~!
5. The way you think of me, and always have me on your mind no matter what. The way you show me in the little ways that you care. You are such a sweetheart.

I LOVE YOU RYAN -- and i want to scream it from the roof-tops!! You are one amazing friend, lover, and boyfriend. I love you, and I promise to never take this relationship for granted! You mean the world to me, and to my boys!

"Maggie Jones"

So, I am just this girl~~

I love being silly, and hanging with friends. I love being with someone who enjoys the time that is spent with me. I love being "Me" cause thats what I am good at!! I am outgoing, loud, fun, & I am witty, (or so I have been told). I love laughing, and I love everything about life that is simple, and "just works." I am really easy to get along with.
I want people in my life who take each word I speak to heart. Who listen, and know that I mean what I say, and I do what i say as well. I am a thinker. I have to have a plan, good and bad. I need to know what way I will go, or how I will overcome something that was not planned for. I am not over analytical -- and most of the time do not over think things. I am very mellow, as long as I feel comfortable, and know that what decisions I am going to make are going to make me into a stronger, better person. I look for each life situation as an opportunity to learn and grow. I still learn things daily, about people, and about myself.
I am a simple girl, with simple wants in life: ( Or what I believe are simple things)

1. To fall in love with someone who loves me, for me.
2. To hang out with the most amazing group of friends, who always put each other first, instead of thinking of themselves.
3. To have a solid family, where when each other are together, there are times spent making memories, and setting foundations for rituals in the future as we grow older.
4. To make sure that each person I encounter knows that I am the type of person to give the shirt off my back to make sure that others are taken care of, and happy. This is who I am, and who I love to be!!!
5. To do kind things for people, each day. Always do some random act of kindness. FOR EXAMPLE: This morning, I bought the persons order in the Starbucks drive-thru, and told the lady to tell them to pass on the good deed to someone else today! I am so sure that made their day -- I know how I felt the 1st time that happened to me. :) I will never forget to always do good deeds.
6. To have the most amazing job, giving back to people. Making a different in the world. Knowing that each time I go to work, I am doing something for others. This could mean completing my degree and doing what I want in life. Going on to Law School, and becoming the attorney that I dream of being. Or going into the Criminal Justice system, as a police officer, or some other area of law enforcement. Could be currently the job that I do now. I do not know what direction my life will take me -- but all I know is, I love having a rewarding job.
7. To raise the most amazing kids ever! To focus on family, and building a home where there is love, and closeness. I cant wait to put a "home" together, and STAY THERE!!!! Ah, I think I have seen enough moving to last years!!!

I know what I want, but putting things into words, is sometimes difficult for me. I can think about things and just make it work, but trying to tell you about it, is alittle more work than I sometimes can do. Ah what I wouldn't give to get my bluntness back again. When I say things, I mean them. But, I have a bad habit to sometimes talk before I think. My bluntness gets away with me. Whoops. LOL.

I hate how sometimes I can hurt people who mean a lot to me. I push them away.... but at the same time, scare myself that I can have such amazing thoughts and feelings about things, or people and then maybe I start "thinking" too much. I sart looking at situations, and start running thoughts through my head, or situations which could result in decisions that are made by other parties. Scary -- but, I have to plan ahead. Most of the time, I plan for the worst, because sometimes I am too nice, and in the end,.... lets be honest... the nice always lose. Nothing ever happens in my life, or should I say currently which stands by my side, or ends up lasting. Most of the time, this usually happened because I never allowed it too. Now-a-days, I dont know what the deal is, but I wish I did. What the heck is wrong with a cute girl, with an amazing personality!!?? JUST LET IT SHINE, AND I WILL BE MYSELF!!!

I want just the simple times. Happiness, love, togetherness, and most of all to be a team, and have the most amazing family. All in a nutshell -- I know I have this life at my fingertips. Will I be able to hold on,.... or will it slip through my fingers? I guess only time will tell -- but people need to know that I am trying, and I am giving what it takes to hold on. It always takes more than one person though -- or else everything in life would be so easy and obtainable. BORING.

Thats all for now ... check back soon -- I am sure I will have more thoughts!! :)

Life

Well, hmmm.... where to begin!! Lots and lots of changes!

The boys are getting so big! I am so thrilled with how their little personalities shine through on a daily basis. Zachary is so halarious, and has the potential to be a true comedian. He is so particular, and notices a lot of details very closely! We were sitting in a restraunt and he was pointing to the wall yellin. Ofcourse, I thought he was probably pointing to the maraca's or some sombrero on the wall, but no... he was showing me that the wall had a little crack in it, running from the ceiling down. You can say detail oriented again!
He is doin better with his words lately! Often saying words after Mom and Dad have said them. Like: Pepper, Pepsi, Animal, etc. Soon he will lose his in home therapy, but will be moving to a Pre-K program in the school district where he will get direction two times a week to start, for 2 1/2 hours. We are so thankful our son will get this heads start, and allow him to interact with other kids, etc. Dad is alittle nervous.... but, how bad can painting, snack time, and taking a nap be?
Ethan, is wanting to crawl, and most likely will be crawling anytime now! He gets on his hands and knees, and gets his knees up and under him so well. He is rocking alittle when he starts, so it should be only a matter of time. He has the cutest, biggest smile that a baby could have! He is a drooler, which also means he will most likely be starting to teeth here soon! All these firsts for my boy! I love his laugh, and his smile so much. He gets so excited to see his Momma when she gets there!! Zachary still has jealousy issues with Ethan. Although as soon as he starts moving, I am sure things might change alittle.
As for Josh and I -- We have hit a rough patch in our marriage. I am sad to announce that we are filing for divorce. We went to see a marriage counselor, which in turn told us that she didnt feel like the marriage was something that was fixable. She felt as though we should have been there a long time ago. I agreed, and said that I had tried multiple times to throw up the white flag and get his attention, but that it was just too late. At the time I cared, he didnt. He was comfortable, and to be quite honest, thought I was joking about everything. I wasnt though, and day by day, it got harder and harder to be that guys wife, who didnt want to put forth the effort to be my husband.
We are hopeful that the arrangements of me moving out, and living on my own, will make things easier to try to maintain an amicable relationship. So far.... so good. We just appreciate the privacy at this time, while our family heals, and we figure out what is best for our family and our children. So far, the children have adapted great, and I look forward to being able to stay really good friends with their Dad.

My blog address is changing..........

For those of you who are close friends/family, I will let you know what my new blog address is.

Pure Happiness, Love & Support...

I am one lucky girl. Even though sometimes I feel like things happen to people for a reason I certainly understand my situation to be a learning expierence. Gosh, from being married 4 years, I know what I like, what i dont, what I look for, and what I would possibly want in the future.

So, hmmmm for some major changes. Blonde hair, bluish green eyes, SUPER tall, HANDSOME, VERY loving, understanding, comforting, dependable, admirable. I love the feeling of "being in love." There is nothing more special than feeling like a princess, or a QUEEN.... :) I want to be in love again, and never fall out of love. I want to be that wife that you can always count on. Always know that I will stand by your side, and support you. But, I also want a boyfriend/husband who recognizes that he has a great thing, and cherishes it, instead of walks on it, and takes it for granted. For the past 4 years of being married I know what its like to put everything in, and not get everything back. Alot of me wonders if I will ever be able to do it again. But sometimes it just takes the right person to let you know that it is possible to open up and let go again. What a leap of faith. But, with the right person I think ANYTHING is possible.

I have always had a lot of guys interested in me,.... even prior to getting married. I was just always that girl who took very good care of herself, worried about my hair getting done every 6 weeks like clock work, my toes and nails done, was very lean, and my self pride was very high. I always put my standards up here ^ and hoped that someone would come into my life and not only hit my standards, but supercede them. So, I got the guy I am currently married to, who swept me off my feet. Who took my breath away. Who I thought I was so lucky being able to know, and eventually marry. Then, I realized what a big mistake I was making. The family had so many problems, I didnt know if I was coming or going. Issues were arising, and deep down, I knew I should have A. never gotten married, or B. gotten it cancelled very soon after all the troubles started. I kept faith. I tried and tried to put things behind me, and work on the problems within my home. The only problem was, only one of us wanted to recognize and deal with the problems, as the other wanted to bury his head in the sand, and avoid confrontation. I fought by myself, often putting myself out in a very vulnerable state. I got hurt, many times, and never had the partner that I married to turn to. He never had enough respect or pride for his wife to stand up for her. Instead, I often took the blame for the situations to avoid conflict. In the long run, it has hurt me, and it has also helped me become the strong lady I am today.
I want a man who is family oriented. Someone who knows how to treat kids well, and the family is the center of their world. They would do anything to just spend that last second with you, just to tell you they love you one more time. I have never had that, and often wonder if something like this only happens in fairytales.
My love goes to someone who has the most amazing characteristics. Someone who has not had everythig served on a silver platter, who isn't used to being treated like royalty. I want to allow them to expierence how wonderful it feels to know someone loves you and can take care of you, emotionally and physically. Someone I can spoil.... and just allow the great characteristics I know I have and possess to shine and shed some warmth on your life, when you might have felt so alone. I know how I would want to be treated, and all I am looking for is someone to do the same for me. Someone who makes me feel like a million bucks when he looks at me, holds my hand proudly, or hugs me. I found someone who does just this..... and I love and cherish each moment that we do get to spend time together. I never take it for granted, and I look forward to the next time, and the weeks, months, years to come. God has to recognize that I am a good person, and I deserve to have happiness. I think thats why he put you in my life.... b/c I feel like the luckiest girl to have found you! You amaze me daily with your kindness, loving support. You are the sweetest guy I know, and any woman would be lucky to have you.... :) I feel like I won the lottery everytime you look at me with your cute smile, and I hope this feeling NEVER goes away! You are the BEST!! Thank you for waking my heart up to letting me know it is possible and someone is out there that can show me just how much I am worth again! I knew 2010 was going to be an amazing year! All because of an amazing guy who I cant wait to get to know more!

ahhhh!!! I am sooooo lucky!! Thank you God!! & Thank you to the man who knows who he is for showing me all of this!!