A barrel of mixed feelings & emotions...

It's been confirmed, and scheduled!!

At 9:11 am my phone rang with the news that surgery has been scheduled with the hospital. On Oct. 6th I have a check-in time on Labor and Delivery of 7am and am set to get settled in and prepped for surgery. 9 am is the time slot I have been given to have Ethan. This is barring there are no emergencies infront of me, etc. So, roughly by the time you get in there, and get started, Ethan will probably be born by 9:30am.



I went in for my checkup yesterday for Ethan, and the Dr. said he is measuring right on time, and approximately 4 to 4.5 lbs already. I am not too worried, because I am sure Zach was just as big right now, and he only turned out to be 6 lbs. 10 oz. Dr. L said that Ethan will probably end up being right around where Zach was, or barely over 7lbs.

Some sad news that I learned was that my Mom will not be able to be in surgery with me. I asked Dr. L if it was possible when Josh left with the baby to take him to the nursery if my Mom could come sit with me, while I am being sown up for 45 minutes. He laughed and said he would have me done in 15 minutes, and would try his best not to make it seem like forever for me. I think easier said than done!!



I can't wait-- but at the same time-- I am nervous. I feel content knowing he is safe inside me right now, etc. But, I also am nervous about the household adapting to all the changes. We have most everything for him, but are hopeful to collect the remaining items within the next few weeks for him, such as towels, bath toillettries, washcloths, blankets, etc. etc. We are having a sprinkle thrown for us on Sept. 5th however it is going to be small, and not over done by any means. We are just thankful to have a small party, and celebrate him.



Now with VERY mixed emotions, I am leaving work in 1 week. I am so completely torn up over this, because I absolutely love my job. I love my 2 bosses, and am going to miss them a lot. I sure do hope that sometime in the future its in the cards for me to be able to return. I know all I have to do is make a call, and I have a job,... its just having 2 kids, which makes it more difficult . Its a decision I know that will not come easy to me until Ethan is older. Right now, I just know I have amazing people I work with, and can always count and lean on them. How wonderful of a feeling to actual LIKE your bosses. Not many people can actually really feel the way I do about working. Josh said IF I was to go back-- he will work it out and make it work for me to be able to go back. Its nice having the support of family and the husband.



So now I am suffering from MAJOR heartburn, and am thinking about going to snack on a bottle of TUMS.